I know many of you worry about me and often come here hoping to hear good news. Forgive me for this long silence. The last months have been the hardest months of my illness. I have been living with constant pain and unableto regain the weight I lost after my last surgery. Most of the time, morphine is not enough to make the pain go away, and when it does, it makes me sleepy. It's been a very difficult time, but I hope you all will have a good 2011, the same I hope for myself.